WORLD EXCLUSIVE: UNPUBLISHED STORY!
Texas Man, 29, Kills Self over ‘Levi the Poet’ Song…Sees Sorrow & Dying as ‘Living’
*Experiences Depression, Frustration, believes Death as only Companion
* Shows up earlier at Afghan Bandstand in Los Angeles, Boozed to Stupor
*Purchases AR-15 Pistol in open market, Blows up head at Houston Airport
* Ready to meet with God to ask questions * Why he left a Suicide Note
* Levi the Poet Deadly song lyrics: “When I meet God after dying, it is better to be in the house of Sorrow than the house of Joy. I have held unto the sorrow for long. Well, I am never gonna be able to repay Jesus the way I lived. I have been thinking so much. I screwed this whole up and I don’t even know if you exist. This is not a life worth living I already ruined it. Mum, Dad, Sisters, Brothers and friends, you will never see me again; I hope you have actualized happily. When I breathe my last I pray that you forget your past in all of these. Try not to blame yourself. Try and find the reason to stay alive. Very very much, God I am coming to see you now….”
BY GEORGE ELIJAH OTUMU/EDITOR-IN-CHIEF, HOUSTON, TEXAS
CARNELL Moore, a-29 year old indigene of Beaumont, Texas is a Black American who graduated from Lamar Institute of Technology, a technical school from Georgia in Class of 2002. He was reserved, intelligent, withdrawn and very conservative. But no one, not even his classmates, family relations and friends ever knew Moore was an apostle and an addictive follower of ‘Levi the Poet’, a highlife artiste whose song titled ‘When I go to Meet God, featuring Mae, the Guitar Player’ drove him into committing suicide by shooting himself on the head at Houston’s largest airport. Earlier before he committed suicide, he drank himself to stupor in another music bandstand in Los Angeles.
Boozed at Afghan Wings band in Los Angeles weeks earlier
Naija Standard learnt that Moore visited Afghan Wings band in Los Angeles some weeks earlier and partied after he had boozed himself to stupor. To show his deep attachment to ‘Levi the Poet’ song, the deceased allegedly used the ring tone of this music on his phone and he kept listening to it over the years. In his quietness most times, he talks aloud to himself, muttering unheard words to himself alone in an inaudible voice. It took the efforts of few people seated around him to help him to his feet at the end of the show.
Not long after that, Moore returned to Beaumont, Texas, and shut himself out to the outside world. He became totally withdrawn and continually listened over and over again to the lyrics of the song of ‘Levi the Poet’, which prompted him to see nothing good in this life, but saw death as beautiful.
Sources in his area close to him revealed that Moore strongly believe in dying, sorrow, pain than been alive since he allegedly never enjoyed a single moment of happiness. Having listened to this song always, he felt the need to kill himself.
The Deadly Song
Levi the Poet’s Deadly song lyrics: “When I meet God after dying, it is better to be in the house of Sorrow than the house of Joy. I can have the same heart like David being of the hardness of sadness thicker than Skull. Dear dead, did you remember when I was always sad you are the one causing my Depression. What makes a mother and son to think that to die is better than tomorrow. I have held unto the sorrow for long. Well, I am never gonna be able to repay Jesus the way I lived. I have been thinking so much. I screwed this whole up and I don’t even know if you exist. When I come to see you God, I am gonna have to be honest. I am gonna have to tell the truth. Another day has gone by and I did not doubt you. I never told you I almost killed myself. I drove my car on that highway bridge into pieces and pray to God, you forgave me. This is not a life worth living I already ruined it. Mum, Dad, Sisters, Brothers and friends, you will never see me again; I hope you have actualized happily. Give my dog a kiss on the lips and all in my right the gold of Isaac. Sister, you are beautiful, don’t let them take that way. Don’t become faceless with no name. To know Isaac better, you too can collaborate. Mum I am sorry the last time we talked you are far. This is so sick to pretend to be somebody I am not. Years down the line when I almost forgot you, get down to know the pain I feel inside when my sorrow is deep inside. When I breathe my last I pray that you forget your past in all of these. Try not to blame yourself. Try and find the reason to stay alive. Very very much, God I am coming to see you now. I am supposed this decision does not display much trust, if you are real and real out there. You make me feel that I am just talking to a floor or a ceiling. Dear Mum I know you would not understand but I am getting used to sadness. Something beautiful came inside in me when I die. To dying is gain, to live is gain inside…”
Purchased AR-15 Pistol in open market
Naija Standard learnt that Moore allegedly purchased AR-15 handgun in an open market earlier and having made up his mind with strong conviction that it was beneficial and blessing to ‘die’ than live, he believed he had a ‘monster’ in his body that would not allow him had peace of mind except he kissed ‘death’ and see God face-to-face to ask him questions that had bothered him for years.
Twitted his suicide intention on Facebook
He began to carry out the ‘monster’ voice in his body, when he twitted at various times on his facebook wall the followings: “This Life Will Crash Tomorrow”, “I recently had the chance of staring death in the face, and she was beautiful,” and “45 minutes and 59 seconds in God’s Shadow and Time Stops.”
24 hours after headed to Houston’s largest airport to commit Suicide
Naija Standard can tell you that Moore armed himself with his handgun neatly tucked under his cloth and suicide note hidden in his pocket; he entered the ticketing area inside Terminal B around 1:35 p.m. and was began to act strangely. As his behaviors started to attract undue attention, he brought out his gun and shot twice into the air.
Police say a man who had fired a gun inside a ticketing area at Houston’s largest airport was killed after being confronted by a law enforcement official. But our investigation showed that Moore shot himself on the head. Houston police Capt. Dwayne Ready says it’s unclear if the unidentified man fatally shot himself or was killed by a Homeland Security agent who had confronted him.
Ready says the agent confronted the gunman after the man had fired one shot into the air around 1:35 p.m. Thursday and had refused to drop his weapon. Ready says the agent fired at the gunman at the same time as it appeared he was shooting himself. Officials say an autopsy will be conducted on Friday. Airport officials say the terminal remains closed but the rest of the airport is still operating.
The suspect was taken away in an ambulance, but he didn’t survive. Terminal B was closed for more than three hours while police investigated the shooting scene. They found one bullet in the ceiling. Bomb-sniffing dogs swept the terminal as a precaution. The FBI is assisting with the investigation.
